Last week when I was in Oregon I was saying my goodbyes to my aunt who was dying of cancer. I held strong through saying my goodbyes and trying to comfort others, but I'm afraid I'm falling apart at the seams now that I'm home (and the bf and the kids are sick with the flu and the house is a mess, etc.).
I'm feeling inadequate and overwhelmed. I'd like a month off, this bathroom to recover in, pots of money to do whatever I want with and a sound proof room for crying. Any advice for how to deal with grief while needing to show up for real life would be appreciated.
A huge THANK YOU to everyone that left good thoughts, great suggestions and comfort for me. I just got 3 solid nights of sleep, connected with people I love, spent some time just being quiet, watched a couple of movies, ate pancakes for lunch, had a martini, took a walk, did some writing, some cleaning and some just being and I am feeling so much more like myself. I think I had just completely underestimated how tired I was and I wasn't leaving myself any room to feel the way I was feeling.
I've got a busy couple of days but I promise to check in with you all later this week. Thanks again to each and every one of you that took the time to write.