Big Reveal (Enough's enough)

Well, here goes.

I left my job. Like the one I've had for 4 1/2 years. The one I thought would be a career (I guess it still could be...)and that I've put so much time and effort into. I met my boyfriend there so that's good. And it's paid me well all this time. And now it just stopped making sense for us to keep working together. And I didn't feel like I was growing at all or really being that useful. And we would fight. And I love blogging and home and design and people! And this job had little to do with those things. However, I've met awesome people, learned a ton about visual effects and design and it gave me a place to land and feel adult for a lot of my twenties. But as I said, something clicked and for now it's done. Of course I still have some responsibilities there that I will tend to for the next couple of months (and I', still writing for apartment therapy, but the structure and stability of my 10-6 job is *poof* gone.

SO I've given myself until the end of the year. And I have little to no idea what I will do. I'm a hard worker. I have ideas. I have experience. I want to take a trip. I made a pillow yesterday. I plan to bake. I have a lot of ideas swirling in my mind and I'm excited to see where all of this leads. Oh also I'm terrified. What have I done?

This has been sort of a long time in coming. I remember at the end of last year wanting to move on. It took almost an entire year to actually do it. I am not a big risk taker. I prefer measured steps, calculated risk and above all, things need to make sense.

Any advice or wisdom is welcomed. I'm on an adventure!


Melanie said...

How exciting! You're daring to imagine a different life for yourself, and taking some really bold steps to get there. I love reading your blog, and I can't wait to read about what happens during the process of figuring things out. Brava!

Leah said...

Kudos for making a bold move. I, too, left a longtime, steady job -- one in my chosen field, but that was making me miserable -- a couple of years ago.

I'm *so* much happier freelancing from home now. But, oh, how I miss that steady, fat paycheck!

Best of luck on your new adventure.



Bob LLama said...

Having never been able to hold a steady 9 to 5 job, I can only say the grass is SOOOO much greener on this side!

You are so good at what you love, why on earth wouldn't you work in that field?

I support this decision 110%.

dean said...

yay, congratulations!

i am planning on doing the same thing, though i want to get my foot in another door before i jump ship at my current gig.

i am impressed and inspired by your courage...here's to new things in the new year!

laure is at home at home said...

Thanks guys, this gusto is definitely lifting my spirits a little bit. That and I'm just staying VERY busy. Keep it coming!

kate (pm) said...

oh my gosh, especially as a hard working, non-risk taker (should I just admit it? I'm a scared-y cat!) I support you all the way! I so wish I was the one who wrote this post!! Good for you! I'm excited for you. and will be living through you... until i muster up enough courage, too. i'm rooting for you!

Porcelain said...

Congratulations!!! What a fun and exciting new move!

Anonymous said...

That's awesome! How is it going so far? Quitting and starting over is a fantasy of mine. Please post about it so I can live vicarioiusly through you and your bravery! I wholeheartedly agree with Porcelain that it will be fun and exciting for you. You are too talented for it not to be.


laure is at home at home said...

I'll talk as openly about it all as I can without being a downer! I'm glad I'm not the only scaredy cat. That's comforting somehow.

Kim said...

I don't know how I miss these things somehow. It's weird. I think you and I are in the same place sometimes. I'm waiting for a big push to get me to jump off this ship.

It's a big jump for anyone, but I think it'll be worth it for you.

What will you do now? Freelance? Dance?

Anonymous said...

Hi Laure, you know what really freaks me out about the thought of quitting a daily job (aside from missing the regular paycheck) is missing the social aspect of an office and dealing with not seeing coworkers everyday. At least, the ones you like. I'm in awe of people who are able to take the leap, who have a strong enough social structure built into their lives to not need an office. The being able to leap part says "healthy" to me.


laure is at home at home said...

YES! The social part is feeling like a big deal. Like I'm not in the club anymore. Plus 'we' just got realy great feedback on one of our projects and I'm not really a part of it. Oh well. I'm making an effort to see more people, network etc.

And Kim--I don't know what I'm doing. It's weird to say. I have a lot of ideas and footwork to do but I don't have a definite endpoint in mind other than to be more creative, explore, and risk.

Your former boss said...

Sorry I didn't comment earlier but here goes:

Congratulations! Go out there and kick life in the ass. It's here to work for you, not the other way around. Any proactive step toward going for what you want can't be wrong.

Vive la Vie!